Use Weakness As A Strength

I'll never forget the time my ex wife told me she was seeing somebody else. It was like one of those creepy old hands and gone into my chest and grab hold of my heart and squeeze it really hard and startsrt pulling it slowly out. That was when my world crumbled around me. 

Over the next few weeks and months I was home alone with my kids in bed.  wondering where my wife was and what she was up to. The hardest part was knowing deep down who she is with and what she was doing. 

To an curtain point I would say my life hasn't really looked any better. I'm overweight and unfit, have no motivation but worst of all no self-respect. 

However as a Christian I believe God can change things for the good. I remember blogging about the song that we sing in church that I had sang a million times before. In that song are the words "he turned our weaknesses into his opportunities". Now singing that song time and time before I'm pretty sure I've never really heard those words in it. As the song continued all I heard was those words "he turns up weaknesses into his opportunities". It was almost as if God had slapped me in the back, I'd turned round and he looked to me and said "that's a heck of a lot of opportunities I have in you"

Some one today told me that vulnerability can be such a powerful thing. Some people can use vulnerability as a negative thing. But god can use vulnerability to strengthen us and others

I'm doing okay life's a bit slow, and I find it really hard to get motivated im trying hard to start liking myself again. I'm started to get my courage back and myself belief. Sure I've got about a ton of weight to lose i'm probably gonna have to work on my smile again but maybe I can come back stronger, and God can use my weakness. I'll go back to that saying KNOW God KNOW Hope, NO God NO Hope. I have hope, and I have faith that God will use my weakness and turn it around