Flame.

Ive been looking back at 2012 and seeing it has been the worst year of my life so far. This morning I had to rely force myself to get out of bed and get into work because I just couldn't face the world. This happens alot to me and I then have to spend the next few days to a week trying to get back on track.

As I write this blog I feel numb and so low, there doesn't seem to be a way to make everything good, and the future just seems to be swallowed up as I try to understand the hurt and pain I have and am suffering.

Ever feel like this? I'm sure we have all felt like this from time to time (although mines more often than not) and just don't ever seem to hear or see any point in anything.

Every been in a dark room, pitch black that you cant see you hand in front of your face? Try and imagine that and then realise that you cant see anything and it almost seems your in a big empty space with nothing around you. Alone and not knowing which way to go. Petty scary right?

Light a match in that darkness, and what you'll see is things around you, you'll get a better idea of direction your facing and you'll maybe feel calmer as things seem to appear more clear.

That Match Give of light. The thing about light is it takes away darkness. And darkness can not possibly over come light. Every time it tries to over come what we see it cant because light is the key to what we see.

We are told that Jesus is the Light of the world, he is the light unto our path. So many ''light'' examples are mentioned in the bible because light is so powerful in every way, we even use it to make electricity these days.

The light in my darkest times has become Jesus. It doesn't stop the feelings of depression or take away the fear of the future he shines a light of them.

Ever heard the expression the Candle of the lord? Well to me this expression means that God is the flame, We can take a part of the flame and go and share the light with others. we can be a light in others darkness and pass on apart of our flame, which is a part of Gods flame.

We can be be a blind fold and shut all the darkness away keeping the light for ourselves. Or we could be a candle that carries a flame to light up the dark and share it with others.

I find a light in my darkness, I hope I can share that light with others.